to conduct oneself; to behave
學下點做人
学下点做人
hok6 haa5 dim2 zou6 jan4
to learn how to be a good person
話人哋識讀書唔識做人可能都係一種偏見。
话人哋识读书唔识做人可能都系一种偏见。
waa6 jan4 dei6 sik1 duk6 syu1 m4 sik1 zou6 jan4 ho2 nang4 dou1 hai6 jat1 zung2 pin1 gin3.
It may be prejudice to state that a person who studies well is not worldly enough.
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Literally it also means to "be a person"
To understand social rules, and to act in a way that supposedly make people think of you positively. To conduct oneself is to be doing everything that makes you look normal, to behave is to not do things that makes you look negative. Does it matter if your cues has nothing to do with how you are? Sorry, no, because for some reason being social creatures means to make yourself look as good as possible, regardless of how good you actually are, and for some reason people seem to forget that it is natural for people to have their shortcomings.
It's like actively fighting against what it means to be a person, and the most noticable side effect is with how it is just so tiring. Just as people expect me to know how to 做人 because "naturally" as a grown adult I should be able to understand how all these rules works and is expected to act on them subconciously, I do not expect anyone to be able to do so. There is a fundemental mismatch that I don't know why, but barely anyone has tried to even recognise the possibility of someone having these traits be absent instead of being something that can be trained.
LLMs actually does something similar to people, to demonstrate basically the fact that it outputs texts that mimmicks human speech well enough that a ton of people treat them as if they have the exact same cognitive abilities as humans does. So in my case it becomes people seeing how I can sometimes mimmick the behaviour of me understanding and internalising social expectations, to the point where people would think that I can do them naturally but for some reason that I haven't, and when they can't explain that they just started assuming how I'm just lazy and I don't wanna try when matter of fact it takes a ton of effort to act "properly" in a formal setting that doesn't require me to just sit and do nothing.
Maybe I shouldn't have pretended that much to begin with when I'm giving everyone a false expectation.
Being a normal person just isn't a sustainable plan, yet people still expects me to be able to handle it myself, when I've already gave it my all and it's still far from good enough.
If I can't simply be in a certain way that isn't even remotely offensive then what's the difference between knowing how to 做人 for the money and to lie about your identity? If this isn't something I'm able to understand wouldn't me pretending to understand it be the same of being disingenuous? Can't people just get that maybe what's happening with me is that trying to get me to do all this while being truthful about it is the same as beating a dead horse?
I'm so tired of trying to 做人.
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