Finally decided to just find the past papers of the subject and got them, reading paper 1 of the oldest practice paper, then read the first question.
It's hard to describe the feeling precisely but it's like remembering the one thing I've hated for years, like every fiber of my being just screams at it and be like "this is one of the worst things that has happened to humanity".
Now it also will make the final blog post regarding the subject (not the language itself) hard to organise but I'll try my best to express how I think about this.
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